messyah

"I say, beware of all
enterprises that require new clothes, and not rather a new wearer of
clothes. If there is not a new man, how can the new clothes be made
to fit? If you have any enterprise before you, try it in your old
clothes."

Thoreau sums up my feelings about the SCA and their desire for me to have better clothes for fencing in.

Mangalore, India
Goa, India
Nagambo, Sri Lanka

of all these beaches, I liked Goa the mostest.

some lj generated haikus:

and not knee deep or
my arms would be sore from doing
the head thing with all

ooo, here's a really good one for me:

on the dot locked
and loaded and ready to
start working again

(it snagged a dupe phrase 'and ready to' from a poem and from various between-project posts. that's pretty kewl)

is predicted to
occur in figure curves this
event will divide

alas, the story of my life:

was on my lips your
heart was on my lips your heart
was on my heart not


bar in tgi friday's
it always amazes me the
things i remember

oh yeah, the other story of my life:

have to mess with it
during the flights and then in
the us possibly

from http://m-w.com/info/favorite.htm

ESPN-onage (n): secretly viewing an all-sports network when your wife leaves the room

polkadodge (n): the pseudo dance when two people attempt to pass each other, each moving in the same direction

fumb (n): the large toe

precuperate (v): prepare for the possibility of being ill

junkstaposition (n): when two or more immobile vehicles are parked next to each other

gription (n): the purchase gained by friction: "My car needs new tires because the old ones have lost their gription."

lingweenie (n): a person incapable of producing neologisms

In the US, possibly permanently, possibly going to work for Google (but probably not). Life in flux, poem in the works.

when i think of you i think that i might suicide
but then i realize i already died
i was swimming in your eyes and drowned
when you turned a hasty look on me and frowned

your beauty worse than all the ugliness in the world
for when i see you my thoughts are hurled
into an abyss of night and black
until your smile brings me back

summer 1986

Here in my prison I sit
Walls of iron built solidly around
Where once the blue shone down
The bars are black; I settle back
to watch the waning day through the tiny crack
a snippet of sky is all I have,
and soon it will be gone
and all alone
I'll wonder why I built this I
And I and I we'll have a talk,
about prisons, and walls, and sky,
and the overwhelming I
clutch my pillow tight,
dirty and sweaty, thin and worn,
I liked it better once upon a time
before history took its color,
and its fullness,
when once it reminded me of holding you.

sleep away, sleep away the waning day
it will be better, come the morning;
til then, my friend, my I, goodbye.

oct 96

From Jan 1998:

Skin and Bones, 2.

I wear my skin on the outside.
I'm digging on the inside,
trying to find a place to hide
hunker down behind my bones
and hope that I can be alone.

my heart keeps thumping
my blood keeps pumping
here inside my sack of skin
I can't think with all the din
my muscles keep moving all around
making a moist and squishy sound
how do people keep their poise
surrounded by all this noise?

I wear my skin on the outside
I'm digging on the inside
trying to find a place to hide
hunker down behind my bones
and hope that I can be alone.

I look around and get all woozy
why can't we be neat and clean?
Instead everywhere I look its all oozy
nothing of anything like a perfect machine
rotors and gears would be nice to see
steadily working inside of me
but no, I'm stuck with a mask of skin
on the outside
sitting in a cage of bone
sitting all alone
squishy, organic and vulnerable to all
with my back to my fleshy wall

I wear my skin on the outside
I'm digging on the inside
trying to find a place to hide
hunker down behind my bones
and hope that I can stay alone.

Cuz after all...
I wouldn't want anyone to see
this gooshy mess inside of me.

come on baby can i have some more? uh oh, the oil and the damage done...


"Although world oil production (O) from 1979 to 1999 increased at an average
rate of 0.75 %/year (Figure 1), world population (Pop) grew even faster. Thus world oil
production per capita (ô) declined at an average rate of 1.20 %/year during the 20 years
from 1979 to 1999 (Figure 2)."
http://www.oilcrisis.com/duncan/road2olduvai.pdf

"The OPEC/non-OPEC crossover event is predicted to occur in 2008 (Figure 1,
curves 2 & 3). This event will divide the world into two camps: one with surplus oil, the
other with none. Forecast #5 presents the following scenario. (1) Beginning in 2008 the
11 OPEC nations will produce more than 50% of the world's oil. (2) Thereafter OPEC
will control nearly 100% of the world’s oil exports. (3) BP (2000) puts OPEC's "proved
reserves" at 77.6% of the world total. (4) OPEC production from 1985 to 1999 grew at a
strong average rate of 3.46 %/year. In contrast, non-OPEC production grew at sluggish
0.37 %/year during this same 14-year period."
ibid

"Some 20 to 140 years from now—depending on which evolutionary theorist, systems theorist, computer scientist, technology studies scholar, or futurist you happen to agree with—the ever-increasing rate technological change in our local environment is expected to undergo a permanent and irreversible developmental phase change, or technological "singularity," becoming fully autonomous in its self-development, human-surpassing in its mental complexity, and from our perspective, effectively instantaneous in self-improvement. It has been postulated by some that environmental events after this point must also be "future-incomprehensible" to existing humanity, though we disagree."
http://www.singularitywatch.com/#what

"Here the first fact is that the bulk of U.S. energy (about 86 percent in 2002) is still supplied by fossil fuels--coal, petroleum, and natural gas. Renewable energy sources--chiefly hydroelectric, wood, and alcohol--have contributed as much as 9 percent of total energy (in 1950 and again in 1982), but have dwindled to only 6 percent of total energy used, chiefly because of a decline in hydroelectric power. Solar, geothermal, and wind power, combined, amount to about 0.5 percent of total energy--because, in general, they are not and will not soon be competitive with fossil fuels on total cost and reliability. Other new age fuels, like hydrogen, have the same problem"
http://www.newamericancentury.org/global-20030923.htm

"The military’s job
during the Cold War was to deter Soviet
expansionism. Today its task is to secure
and expand the zones of democratic
peace; to deter the rise of a new greatpower
competitor; defend key regions of
Europe, East Asia and the Middle East; and
to preserve American preeminence through
the coming transformation of war made
possible by new technologies."
http://www.newamericancentury.org/RebuildingAmericasDefenses.pdf


I think that they missed the boat. The real job of the military is to grab as much military control over the (finite and rapidly dwindling) natural resources of the planet as possible.